Think i jinxed it again. Was thinking whether to break good news to our parents on 26th Aug and its gone by 28th. Guess we really have to listen to what our elders said. Do not announce arrival until 3 months later otherwise bad luck.
Was resting on bed when it happened on 27th Aug.. Felt a gush and i ran to the toilet leaving trail.. Stuck in the toilet but notice the bleeding did not stop. So i quickly dial for cab and rush to hospital. Called my hubby while on the cab.
Called Dr Yu and inform her about my situation and was asked to go O&G instead of A&E. Waited outside her clinic and as soon as the room is clear i rush in. She did a scan and confirm its still intact. She ask me to register for admission. She also ordered progesterone shot to be administered when warded. We waited almost 2 hours for the ward until i got pissed off. I ask the nurse to administer the shot but she had to get clearance. After asking a few times, finally they gave me the shot.
Rested at the nurse room while waiting for bed. They were serving dinner when i was wheeled to the ward.
The ward doctor came with 2 trainee doctor and i got a shock. There was a miscommunication somrwhere and when the doctor come he apologize about miscarriage. After clarification he mentioned there's a mixed up with another patient.
But true enough, when i did a scan this morning. Its gone. I'm angry and at the same time sad.
Sad about the lost. Angry with late administration of jab and ward. Angry with the miscommunication. Somehow i lost my faith in ivf and SGH. Everything was soooo sloooow. I keep thinking.. What if they administer the shot asap.. Could the ending change?
What if........
At the end of the day.. Back to reality.. What's gone is gone and never coming back..
